How’s that for a blog post title? Here’s the thing, I have to be honest, I haven’t been feeling these writing prompts. Have you been able to tell? I hope not, but probably you have. The fault does not lie with the person who created them. I think the problem is that I have a really hard time with grief. I have felt really connected and inspired a couple of times over the last 15 days, but that’s it. For the most part, I feel like I have been phoning these posts in. I’m sorry about that.
On top of it all, my youngest son has been sick for nearly 2 weeks (strep and scarlet fever, and then a virus caught on top of that). He is on the mend, but it’s been distracting and upsetting. Illness and injury, particularly when they affect my youngest son, are my biggest anxiety triggers. I have been tense. I have not been sleeping well. I have been trying to self-care… and failing at it.
These prompts are important though, because I am bad at grief. They give me the space to feel my feelings, if only I will take it. I haven’t been taking it very much. I just haven’t been able to.
A few weeks ago, a dear friend sent me a gift of these affirmation cards. I love them and have pulled one every day since we received them, even taking them all the way to California with me when we went on a short vacation in January. Tonight, as I was dawdling, knowing I needed to sit down and work on today’s post, but not really wanting to, I pulled the card pictured above.
Touché, Universe, touché.
So, I am going to take a hint and stick with these prompts, even though some may fall flat. There is something valuable in exploring my grief, and I don’t want to miss out on that.
Love to you all.